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Saturday, March 22, 2008

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 06:46:10 GMT

yay ! brazillian kids were at mixology tonight!
dancing good times!
super nice kids they were... lots of fun.. lots of dance

also i cut my hair
good day! spring break 08!

they were also tiny.. it was cute
the girl jumped on me.. when i said good bye.. she was super light
i can only assume the guy was too
ie: theory- brazillians are light

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 06:20:02 GMT

WIP* for painting 2 class

*that means work in progress... duh.. geez.. oh.. you knew that? well yeah.. of course

so yeah.. just the first layer so far... so try not to judge too harshly .... (or do.. see if i care!)

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 10:44:29 GMT

well look here... how have you been old friend?
what do you mean you dont remember me...!?
it hasnt been that long.. ............. hmm... or maybe it has...

i dont really know anyone on here anymore
maybe thats for the best though.... only the select few will notice my ramblings
i could be free!
free to talk about my inner most feelings and thoughts!
i could discuss my worries about life and love and philosophy and politics
i could release my darkest secrets from their long held confines!
this new world this open door this empty canvas waiting to be covered!

*yawn*... eh... ill probably just continue with the fart jokes though

its nearly 7am... ive been up since midnight... took a nap from 6pm last night until 12 in the AM
my sleeping schedule hasnt been very logical lately... sleep when I can... then Art it up when im awake
there is a painting behind me... need to try and put a layer of paint covering the whole thing before friday.. only two colors on it at the moment.. background colors... its just a nude master study... perhaps ill post (hot) pics later
but for now... i need to do some 3D modeling for animation... before 11am when i go to class
then when im out of there... at 2pm i go to ceramics.. until 5pm... joy!... then ill come home and go to bed most likely.. only to wake up once again at midnight-ish

gah

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 01:18:21 GMT

happy birthday

i miss you

yargggg

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 08:25:57 GMT

oh man... this is totally not fair

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 19:24:29 GMT

media 365 project #2

there are quite a few problems id like to fix.. if i had the time and actors to reshoot
but i dont... so... here you go...

Orange you glad im going to kill your wife?

2 years

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 19:41:14 GMT

as of yesterday.. its been two years since kristin passed away
for some reason i was okay yesterday.. but today it hit me like a ton of bricks
...partly because im stressed out and just have too much going on.. too much to do today..
also because i went to the memorial page that the funeral home had set up for her
you could leave messages and such on the page...
there were some left right after it happened of course... i left a message then as well
but since then.. there have only been a few... aside from her dad
her dad has left like five.. and reading them.. i just couldnt deal with it.. broke down a bit
then left a message of my own...
i almost went back and read my xanga posts from two years ago..
but im not sure i could take that

...tough stuff

i miss you krispen

spring cleaning

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 20:02:00 GMT

i saw it out of the corner of my eye.. i knew it was there..
i tried to ignore it for as long as i could.. but eventually i would have to face it...
the water was no longer clear with a slight green tint from the dish soap..
it was now murky .... a hint of both green and brown...
perhaps i was trying to fool myself... make myself think i could get away without
washing it at all... but deep down i knew the truth...
i couldnt leave it till tomorrow or next week...
surely someone would come over and see it there..
rotting.. with what had one time been some sort of edible product
i picked it up and plunged it into the sink...
it didnt matter now.. there was no point in trying to keep the water pure..
it was too late...
the effort was in vain though...
i lifted the dish up to see that every bit of corn flake? or.. oat?
or whatever it had been.. was still intact securely to the insides of the bowl.....
which itself seemed to be content and oblivious to anything out of the ordinary....
i held it... nearly weeping....
why cant it just come off..
is the bowl itself too pourous?.. or was there something special about what i ate..
something that just sticks to you for so damn long? ....
i drained the sink... the water was no longer hot enough
i turned on the faucet and let the water get warm
then squirted some soap directly into the bowl...
i cant just give up.. or ill never be able to use it again...
i reached my hand under the running water... then snapped it back....
nearly scalding.... that should do...
i put the bowl in direct contact with the water...
and quickly using my scrub brush at the same time....
it was working... pieces were coming off... surely i would be clean in no time....
i left some water in the bowl..
added more soap.. and scrubbed as hard as i could...
this is it.... most of it was gone now...
just a few small bits that were extremely difficult to remove...
i was beginning to feel exhausted by my efforts
then i had this thought.... perhaps its good enough as it is...
surely those small bits wont make me sick or anything...
i could just leave them there.. and when i reuse the bowl...
they will be there but .. they shouldnt harm me...
i took it over to the countertop and gently set it down to dry....
perhaps ill take a look at it again later and see if i still feel the same

space

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 04:45:35 GMT

im often enamored by space and its numerous subplots...

i enjoy thinking about the supposed possibility of space being infinite...
if thats true.... if space is truly infinite.. then it would stand to reason that all possibilities become possible
if space continues on forever... truly forever... then most anything could be happening.. *somewhere*
random chance is thrown out the window.. and instead all possible paths are taken
... somewhere.. there is another earth... that has followed the same path as this one since the beginning of time
only on that one... im driving a vespa...
in another one... i work as a janitor in a highschool and never went to college
in another i lost all my hair at 15....
in another... i get the girl.... my vision is perfect and i live somewhere fascinating...
in another... i suppose im suicidal.. and didnt make it to 20
in another... kristin is still here.... she graduated and lives in chicago with erin.. perhaps ill move up there with them when i graduate....
in yet another... im a pro mini-golfer.. (which is HUGE on that world) .. and i cured cancer.....

..... i consider all possibilities... and i smile... in hopes that space is indeed infinite
if its not.... where does it end? how... in what way? whats passed that? can anything be?
i try not to think about that..... i choose to believe that it is infinite... because the possibilities ... both good and bad.... give me a bit of hope.... im fairly content with life right now... but its nice to think that somewhere i might be even more so....

best day ever

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 05:41:56 GMT

oh... tuesdays and thursdays.. why are you so long
im up at 7:30 ... after just a few hours of sleep
modern art history at 8am....
then comes an hour break.. just long enough for me to nearly fall back asleep
before having to get to painting class at 11am.... thats over at 2pm
then straight to animation class.. which last till 5pm
then at 5:30.. i was off to work
joy

luckily i was only at work for about two hours.. it was very slow.. and i was the early driver out.. so home i came
i then proceeded to take a 2 hour nap... woke up... checked the internets
turned my phone on.. to see if i missed any calls.... oh.. nate invited me to the mud lounge
it wasnt too long ago that he sent that message... surely they are still there
i hurried on down there.. for i was really hungry and figured i could convince them to go eat with me when the lounge closed..... alas they were already gone.. i walked across the street.. and got jimmy johns

eh.... perhaps tomorrow will be more fun... for i shall at least see Pan's Labyrinth